I’ve personally been through some very rocky relationships in my past – most with women who were sure they loved me but actually did not know the first thing about love. Me, I believe I have an idea of what love is, but most importantly – I do know when I love someone wholeheartedly or if I’m just putting on a show. Sadly for me, I have also had my run with women who have put on shows. Honestly, I have never not wanted to be in a relationship with the person I chose to take the leap with. Far too many times do I see women who just want to be in love and not actually caring who it is they’re in love with. That’s what I call lusting for love. Those are some of the toughest relationships to deal with because those type of people are hard to crack and will do anything to keep their lust for love fed. It is a dangerous game once a partner sees that their lover is just with them because they fear being lonely, instead of naturally feeling like they belong with you.
Last night was a prime example of how a person can be very misleading with love. I will not go into details but a female whom a very good friend was dating showed her boyfriend that she was with him for all the wrong reasons. Once he caught wind of who she truly was, she did everything in her power to keep things going – to keep herself happy and in love, regardless of how hurt my friend was about the situation. Girls who just want to be with someone for the ride aren’t easy to break as I said before. You have to notice the little things they do to crack their code. These type people are usually party going, materialistic type of people whom have a hard time staying in one place too long. Watch out for these people on your journey to the promise land of love, because you won’t see them coming. Be aware.
If I drowned in your emotions, would you give me your last breath?
Or would you let me fall, slipping into the depths ?
If I was on fire with your love, would you drop your last tears?
Or would you let me burn hotter as death nears?
If I lost every battle in life, would you let me finally win?
Or would let me be a loser, tainted from the outside in?
Overcome with darkness, the black overflows from within
In a place where no man would willingly go again
No voice, no sight, just mist, and weightless thoughts
Those who fought have gone and passed with no chance to last
Amongst the hopeless with no reason to laugh
Looking for our smile, in a bottomless pit
Going lower and lower, just to see how low the bottom can get
You’re the same as me; you make mistakes just as I do. The only difference is that I own up to my mistakes. I don’t avoid the doubt casted upon me because of the decisions I’ve made. I am a man who owns up to everything. I deal with my problems because I made those problems. There’s no easy way out. Casting the pain onto others, or ignoring your faults will only lead to confusion. Man up, step up and take ownership of your emotions. Don’t be something you’re not. That’s how you end up lost. Be you, be honest, and don’t avoid the pain. The pain helps us grow. It helps us understand how to be humans, not robots. We’re either controlled by our emotions or we learn to control our emotions. We shall no hide in the shade when the sun is burning up the ground beneath us. Stand there and fight the heat at all costs. If you shall burn than at least you’ll burn with pride – knowing you didn’t run away from anything. You stood there like a human being who knows right from wrong. You didn’t cower away from anything. That makes you a man. That’s what makes you human.
The wind spoke to me and said I should go
I followed, I walked, until I ran into snow
The rain would tell me to continue my journey
Then the thunder clapped, but lightning had warned me
This a place where you will need some protection
A little light in the night, and darkness for reflection
Run, run and never look back
Life is too grand to fall in a trap
The rain was pouring but I knew that could change
Still, I keep on running, with success on my brain
All of the weather had just finally started to clear
When the sun starts to shine, then happiness is near
Underneath the bright shade,
In between the shining dark;
Here is where life’s made,
This is my grey start;
The colors will fill soon,
But for now this shade is home;
Evading the blue moon,
Under this grey stone