I remember when fitting in was the popular thing to do. I knew people who got completely out of character in order to mix in with the cool crowd. At the time I was amongst those kids looking for a place to fit in. I found myself straying away from the things I loved most, just so I could seem cooler to people who really didn’t matter to me.
To this very day, those same people are still trying to fit in. Although they aren’t in high school they try to relate to their co-workers, family, and friends by taking on a completely different persona. A person that those friends can relate to. Me, well I gave up on fitting in a long time ago. If being myself makes me an outcast well that’s just the way it’s going to be.
I will never again try to be someone I’m not just to save face for people who can’t accept who I really am. Some people may dislike the real me but those who love me only love me for who it is I am and not who I try to be. I’m a young, opinionated, outspoken, and brutally honestly person. Like it or not, that’s just me.
Those are some traits you just can’t show when you’re trying to be accepted by whomever it is you put your mask on for. I took that mask off a long time ago and realized that I have to be me. I’m just different than a lot of people I know. I take pride in being different. i speak my mind and I don’t worry about meaningless opinions. People will judge you no matter how you project yourself.
I know some people who live off of trying to please others. I could never be that type of person. I may be annoying and hard to understand at times but I always speak the truth. Everything I do and say comes from the heart. I barely ever have to think about what I’m going to say because nobody knows me better than me. It’s far more easy to be yourself than it is to be that person you want everyone to believe you are.
Being different is okay. Being normal is fine too, but being “fake” is unacceptable.
I started my first “long-term” relationship when I was 18. Honestly, it was a really good feeling. That feeling is what I described as love, a quick mistake. Being young and it being my first real relationship, I was eager to be in love and so was my girlfriend at the time. We both jumped in head first. We didn’t stop to question whether we were both ready to actually be 100% dedicated to each other both mentally and physically.
Time eventually made that decision for us. Eventually, things started to fall apart. I was hurt, but in the end. I just figured that it wasn’t true love. I learned valuable lessons from that relationships and it carried into my next relationship. The problem was that the next relationship felt the same as the last. Two young adults, craving love, not thinking about the future, living in the moment. Again, our relationship fell victim to time and misunderstanding.
Today, I’m single and in love. That may sound strange but it is true. I realized that the love I searched for all along was inside me the whole time. I dug deep to find it. It was a long process but I eventually knew that if I was gonna find true love, I had to know what it was to love without a relationship. Understanding love isn’t an easy task. You shouldn’t depend on anyone else’s love, only your own. You have to understand how important love is and feel that love enough to give it to another. The hardest part is finding someone who understand love just as much as you. Some have to be guided, don’t be afraid to lead a lost soul into the light.
Now that I realize that loving myself was the start, I know that my next relationship would have a better end. I can’t be 100% that this means I will fall in love and have a perfect union with the woman of my dreams. What I can be sure of is that I’m ready to appreciate a bond between two people more than I ever have. I feel in control of my emotions and my actions. Unlike before, I understand what it takes to keep someone happy and it starts with keeping yourself happy. There’s love inside of all of us, there’s no need to wonder if you’ll ever fall in love because that love lies deep within you. What’s more important than being in love is knowing how to love, knowing the importance and the power of the love within. Find the love inside of you and see where it takes you.