I have set my world on fire. Burning everything that has held me back before. I will take the ashes and use them to rebuild my life. No longer will I leave a gasoline trail so that someone can throw a lit match when I reach my goals. No one will be able to deter me from success. As that fire burns, I’m searching around on my soul to throw any negativity into the blaze. I will do away with all the bad. I feel more relieved as the pain turns into thick black smoke, disappearing into thin air. It will be a test to rebuild but that’s fine with me as long as the pieces come from positive components.
Why do hate me? What have I ever done to deserve your disapproval? Don’t you realize that I have enough love within myself drowned out your bad vibes? If I were you I wouldn’t be wasting my time dispensing hatred. Give love a try. Dig deep within in yourself and find that silent bit of light buried beneath the darkness of your soul. Believe me, it may not feel like it, but it’s buried down there somewhere. I know this because I used to be just like you. Upset at the world, wondering why everything is so much better for everyone else; looking up at the sky and wondering if anyone up there is protecting you, or if something beneath your feet is slowly dragging you under. You hide in the shadows, away from the light just so no one will find the pain overcoming your entire existence.
Fight that pain, and dig until you can’t dig anymore. Come up with a solution within yourself. The world and what’s happening around you won’t change anything; only you can do so. You can’t take your emotions out on everyone. There’s no reason to drag everyone else down with you. If you aren’t going to adjust to the troubles that come along with the gift of life, then there’s no reason to live. Peace is there; you just have to want it bad enough to get it. Once you find that peace, you have to spread it around, because there’s a million people like you and I, fighting within themselves, searching for that light hidden in their dark. Change is coming, even if you don’t want it. You’ll go through something that will set everything in motion. It may be the most difficult situation that you’ve ever encountered, but you’ll rise from the ashes, reborn like a phoenix with the wings of an angel.
That hate that once consumed your body will slowly be eradicated and replaced with peace, love, and true happiness. You will then not have to hate me anymore. I won’t have to wonder why you want me to suffer when I’m just trying to be myself, and make the best of whatever it is I have at moment – even if it isn’t much in your eyes – its everything and more to me. Life is precious but it is very fragile. Surround it in the comfort of something positive and it will strengthen. Once the love is in you, it will grow until it towers over all hatred. If you ever fall – you’ll have that peaceful love to cradle you back to safety.
When you’re down there’s no way you could go any lower. When you’re high, there’s always room to rise. We will only go reach as far as we extend. There’s only one rock bottom, but there’s an unlimited space to fly among the stars. The bad things will fade away, while the good times will last forever. Don’t strap yourself down in self-pity. Get up and start your ascension into the sky. If you aren’t going to try to reach unbelievable new heights, then you should move over and make room for someone who will at least try to soar. At birth, there’s only one way to go for human beings and that’s forward. There is no retracting time. Move on through positivity and use the negative as a stepping stone. Remember this: there is no limits on success and failure is only temporary.
We all have had our share of bad times. Some of us never get the chance to pick ourselves up before we let ourselves slip too far away. The mind plays a lot of tricks on you when you’re down and out. I just want to talk about some of those bad things we go through and how we could make it easier on ourselves during these times. Everything won’t apply to everyone but we all know what it feels like to be down, sad, or depressed about some of the things that happen to us in life.
We all know how hard it is to keep and maintain a job. While we may not have total control of who hires us, we do have total control of how to handle these situations. Do not ever let yourself believe that it’s impossible to find a job quick enough to get back on track. That feeling of hopelessness is all in your mind. Believe that you can find work, and it’ll be easier to deal with actually being out of work. We know that happiness won’t pay the bills, but happiness will keep you motivated enough to get yourself back on the right track. Do not go a day without filling out applications and networking with people. Constantly ask your friends about work opportunities. Ask your friends to ask their friends as well. Stay active, and keep your mind from being idle. Do not sit and think about how bad it is being unemployed. Focus on getting a job and staying positive. You’re only going to feel as good as you let yourself feel. Things have to change, nothing is forever, especially not unemployment. Also, since you now have more free time on your hands, be sure to pick up some new, or old hobbies. Working out, playing sports, or writing are great ways to spend your down time and to keep the positive juices flowing. Always feel like you’re taking steps in the right direction. When you feel like you can’t do anything else, do more.
Keeping a healthy relationship is very hard to do in 2013. People are moving faster than ever. It takes patients to maintain a relationship. Most of the time, couples are moving at high speeds in opposite directions but never have the time to stop and realize it. So, before they know, they’re sitting down having “the talk”. It’s natural to feel very bad about the loss of a partner. The feeling of having someone there for you is an amazing feeling. On the other hand, the feeling of being lonely is sometimes unbearable. We cannot force anyone to to be with us, no matter how much we believe that they’re the one for us. What isn’t meant to be, just won’t be. Pick yourself up and realize that whatever went wrong, is for the better. You will feel the hurt, but don’t let it linger around too long. It’s in everyone of us to re-group and start fresh. It’s not good for you to feel like being lonely or single is a bad thing. Being alone is one of the most underrated feelings in the world. When you’re isolated, you have time to think without interruption or clouded thoughts. You only have to think for yourself, not for a partner. That should make it easier for you to make the right decisions moving forward. Most of us don’t take enough time alone to make the right choices, so we end up back in another bad situation. Don’t be that person. Take your time, embrace that time, and slowly move towards something better. There’s always something better if you take the time to search for it. Also, it’s not always a good thing to be in a relationship. It’s better to establish yourself first, that way it’ll be easier to give that someone your all. Piling stress onto more stress will more than likely create tension between any two individuals. Be patient and you’ll be just fine.
This is one of the more difficult things that life throws at you. These are the things that we don’t see coming and that’s when it hurts the most. There are many forms of tragedy, we see it or hear about it almost everyday. We live in a world full of it. Personally, I think that death is the hardest thing to deal with or be around. If you’ve been reading my blog, or know me, than you know that I lost my father when I was young. I’ve also lost both grandparents, a brother, a few cousins, and multiple close friends. No death is any better or worse than the other, but the death of my father prepared me for things in life I never thought I’d be able to handle. That feeling of being so lost, so young, sticks with you forever. I knew when he passed that I’d never feel so low again, and I honestly have not since then. There may have been some things that were just as hurtful but I had already knew how to deal with those things. What I’m saying is, I learned that death itself is a learning experience that prepares you for anything and everything in life. You have to take your time to grieve, it’s natural. You may never get over some deaths, but you shouldn’t ever fully get over them. The fact is, a little bit of that pain sticks with you forever. You have to find a way to use that pain as motivation. It may take time, but if you have to know that eventually, it will get better. Death won’t always be a painful experience. You’ll eventually understand what death teaches you, especially the death of someone close to you. I feel like the death of my father has kept me alive. There’s a lot of things you wont do when you know there’s someone special with their eyes on you at all times. You want to live life for them and you want to live it right, so one day you both can look down on whoever you left behind.
I live in the dark. I come alive in the night. The day is my platform, in the darkness I start to form art. Like a vampire seeking blood in the night, I’m wide awake, working towards my goals. Nothing bothers me at this time. The night air is peaceful, the summer temperatures are cool, and the whole world is sound asleep. This is the perfect time for me. I don’t have to listen to anyone, I don’t have to be anywhere, I am a loner here in the night. No one can see my faults or hear my cries. No one can get in my way. The roads are empty, and the skies are bright, at night everything feels so right.
At some point in our lives we all have asked ourselves why we were placed on this earth. While there’s no obvious answer to that question, it’s obvious that we were placed here to live out our individual lives as we please. Each of us are unique in our own ways. Some believe we all are apart of some big plan or destiny but nobody can really but any truth to those views. The truth is we shouldn’t look for the answer to a question that has already been answered. We are put on this earth to live and to die. What happens in between then is completely up to you to decide, but only if you’re ready for that responsibility. You have to take control of you life even when you feel completely lost. It’s your job to be able to find yourself again because there will not be a search party out looking for you.
While we don’t always know what could happen next in our lives or how the future will pan out, what we do know or should know is who we are and what we are capable of. The answer to the question of why we are here, lies within all of us. Believe it or not, we all have authority over our destinies. There will be times when you feel like you have no control over anything going on around you or within you. We cannot plan out everything that happens to us but what we can do is take control of each situation as it presents itself. There will be times you fail and you will question whether you have any control of life at all. Those questions are completely normal. Still, do not lose hope when life gets a bit bumpy. The answer to all of your problems are within your mind, body, and soul. There’s no situation in life that you can’t handle as long as you have complete control of your mind, body, and soul.
When you know who you are, what you want, and how you should handle life’s problems, then you will realize that you can overcome anything at anytime. Having faith in yourself is jut as important as having faith in any person or higher power. We can’t stop tragedy, death or any of life’s mishaps, but what we can do is control how it affects us. Knowing how to react and what steps to take next after some of life’s more trying moments will prepare you for those reoccurring problems in the future. If you don’t know how you will handle something, then you need to dig deep and find those answers because nobody else can provide you with those answers. I know who I am, I know what I want to do, and I know which disadvantages there are and which advantages I have in order to get me through life without feeling like I’ve lost my grip on things. Grab control of your yourself and you will see that there are more things in life that are ultimately in your hands and not anyone else’s. Become the ruler of your actions and emotions. Don’t let outside influences make decisions that you should be making for yourself. Once you acquire that ultimate authority you just have to know what to do with from that point on.