Life is death and death is life

To have the whole thing is to have a slice

Taking a gamble to is hold the dice

We are winning to lose

And it’s all to confuse

The truth or a lie …

Which do we choose ??


As Free As I Want To Be


The world needs more free spirited people. The type of person that wakes up and puts no limits on themselves. The type that believes they could soar without wings, and without fear of falling. We need people who aren’t slaves to their own life. If we could all just be free within ourselves then we could all enjoy life to the fullest. We could live life without regret, without fear, without direction, as long as we’re alive, we have the right to be happy. Money, jobs, and materialism may be important to you, but you shouldn’t be consumed by anything, at any point in your life.¬†We are all born free. As kids, we are free spirits, without worries, we live without boundaries, we smile at the smallest gestures, no one can do wrong in our eyes. As we grow older, most of us begin to lose sight of all freedom. In search of security, we turn in our freedom for chains. We’re bound by our own goals, lost in life, searching for answers to questions that need no answer. We strive to be rich, losing sight of the value in just being able to live, to breathe, and to love. Free yourself, express yourself, but always be yourself.

Living To Die

I strive only to struggle
I love only for pain
I gain only to lose
My pride is only shame

I build only to destroy
I meet to only avoid
The truth is my lie
The ground is my sky

I stand only to fall
I rise into descent
I remember only to forget
I look to succeed knowing I’ll fail

I wonder only to know
I disappear only to show
I’m found with no place to go
I’ll just keep on asking why
Why am I only living to die?

If This Is The End of The World (12/21/2012)

If this is the end of the world I have many regrets. My biggest is not getting to see those of you who I care for so much, those of you who meant so much to me when I was a child. Time and distance has separated us and the thought that we had time only blinded us. If this is the end, I am telling you that I love you, forever.

If This is the end of the world, I’m leaving it lonely. Time, it’s all my heart had on it’s side. If that isn’t true than I am doomed for sure. So relationships I threw away because I wanted to focus on my future, instead I could die in peace, with joy, and with my soul-mate. It would have been a blessing to hear another person heartbeat as mine slowly faded, to hold hands til they grew cold and blue or burned together in the fire as it falls from the sky. Now death says it can’t be and I will forever be lonely and denied of ever feeling true love.

If this is the end of the world then I have left it broke. The end will ease the pain of failure if that was my fortune but if it wasn’t I would be missing out on everything I deserve, for I have never had anything. My dreams all coming true wasn’t a dream at all but a leap and soon enough I would make that jump. The feeling of success must feel so good, but if this is the end of the world, I will never know.

If this is the end of the world, I am leaving happy. Nothing ever mattered more than my friends and my family, You guys were always there. If this is the end, at least we know we spent priceless moments together and now all of that seems so valuable and not a second was wasted, not even on the arguments, we found a way to jump through the burning loops of life. We lived together and we will die just the same. Hand in hand, heart to heart, we shall rise to a better place and look down as our world heals itself and promises a tomorrow somehow, for someone.

Brian Anderson