Lusting For Love


I’ve personally been through some very rocky relationships in my past – most with women who were sure they loved me but actually did not know the first thing about love. Me, I believe I have an idea of what love is, but most importantly – I do know when I love someone wholeheartedly or if I’m just putting on a show. Sadly for me, I have also had my run with women who have put on shows. Honestly, I have never not wanted to be in a relationship with the person I chose to take the leap with. Far too many times do I see women who just want to be in love and not actually caring who it is they’re in love with. That’s what I call lusting for love. Those are some of the toughest relationships to deal with because those type of people are hard to crack and will do anything to keep their lust for love fed. It is a dangerous game once a partner sees that their lover is just with them because they fear being lonely, instead of naturally feeling like they belong with you.

Last night was a prime example of how a person can be very misleading with love. I will not go into details but a female whom a very good friend was dating showed her boyfriend that she was with him for all the wrong reasons. Once he caught wind of who she truly was, she did everything in her power to keep things going – to keep herself happy and in love, regardless of how hurt my friend was about the situation. Girls who just want to be with someone for the ride aren’t easy to break as I said before. You have to notice the little things they do to crack their code. These type people are usually party going, materialistic type of people whom have a hard time staying in one place too long. Watch out for these people on your journey to the promise land of love, because you won’t see them coming. Be aware.


Weathering The Storm


The wind spoke to me and said I should go

I followed, I walked, until I ran into snow

The rain would tell me to continue my journey

Then the thunder clapped, but lightning had warned me

This a place where you will need some protection

A little light in the night, and darkness for reflection

Run, run and never look back

Life is too grand to fall in a trap

The rain was pouring but I knew that could change

Still, I keep on running, with success on my brain

All of the weather had just finally started to clear

When the sun starts to shine, then happiness is near

The Happiness Within


There was once a man who loved everything about everyone. He couldn’t find any bad in any single person. Even when he was disrespected, he smiled in return. When he was hated, he continued to love. This man didn’t know what it meant to hate anyone and no one understood him. His friends would constantly tell him how it’s not wise to trust and love everyone, for they could end up hurting you badly. The man didn’t care; as long as he felt it was the right thing to do, he would keep on doing it.

Time passed and the world around him began to worsen. People were committing crimes left and right, kids stopped listening to their parents and people had no more than a few friends. Still, to him nothing had changed. Everything was just as positive as it’s always been. He walked around proud with his head held high. Everyone would give him the evil eye – jealous that he could smile through such depression.

Eventually, the world got even worse and there wasn’t any joy around. The man still found a way to smile, a way to stay happy through the rough times. Eventually people started to notice how happy he was and wondered what it was that keeps hims smiling. Random people would try to ruin his day, throwing coffee on him, stepping on his shoes and spitting at his feet. Still, the man continued to smile.

What everyone wondered had happened to be the most simple thing to figure out. As long as he was content within, than nothing can bring him down. He saw only what he wanted and felt only what he wanted to feel, no matter what the world around him became. Staying strong and positive will keep you smiling through the worst of times. The average person couldn’t find enough happiness within themselves, and even if they did, they’d still not see that same happiness in the face of others.

The man knew he had to see the good in everything, no matter how grim it could become. If he was going to stand out above the crowd, he had to smile, walk proud and not judge anyone for anything. Now, everyone is lost and this man is as happy as he has ever been. The truth is, the worst the world had gotten, he found a way to keep the bad from touching his soul. Things that others only knew how to fight with anger – he only knew how to fight those same things with happiness.What may be a cliché to many is the truth for another. True happiness is within – paint the world with it no matter how ugly it gets.

Happiness comes from within. It is not dependent on external things or on other people. You become vulnerable and can be easily hurt when your feelings of security and happiness depend on the behavior and actions of other people. Never give your power to anyone else.” – Brian L. Weiss


Writing Saved My Life


Many of you may have heard the term “I am my own worst enemy” before, but I’ve lived it. Looking back a few years ago – I was lost. The things I held close are become more and more distant with each passing day. I was a bit younger than; figuring I could afford to make mistakes, but now I realize what those mistakes has cost me. All the time I spent drinking, smoking and involving myself with witless women, was time I could have used to be productive. I know better now, but I wish I could have known then. I’m just starting to really enjoy relaxing and writing. I’ve always wanted to be a writer, but never took the time to actually do it. Recently, I sat down and made it happen. All it took was time and dedication. I now have my foot in the door as a sports writer – something I should have accomplished a long time ago.

Things aren’t just going to go to waste like they used to. I now love to write more than ever – even if I spend my whole day writing, I just want to write more and more until my hands feel like they’re going to fall off. Okay maybe not to that point, but you get my drift. I would never want to look back and alter anything because I wouldn’t be to the point I am now. It took all the negative to build up this confidence and my need to avoid unnecessary things in life. I’m young and I have no kids – what do I really have to complain about? A lot is what I used to tell myself, but now I realize that I have everything to be happy about. It’s all about the future. Everything I do now feels so good because I know I’m working towards goals that’ll make my future all the more enjoyable.

This isn’t all about me either. It’s actually more about my family than anything. The sad part is that they’ll never know it. All they see is a selfish kid who’d rather write than do work around the house all day. I guess everyone isn’t going to understand why I do certain things but it doesn’t matter as long as I know I’m doing the right things in my mind. Still, I love my family and I want this for them. So I can make sure they will always be safe and live peacefully without me bringing in any drama from the streets like I used to. One day they will be happy that I ignored them to write(lol).

I knew if I were going to make drastic changes – I had to be selfish. There wasn’t going to be anymore worrying about what others think or do. I couldn’t want a relationship or someone to care for me. I knew I had to avoid some of my closest friends and family just so I could give all my focus to writing. Writing has saved my life. I wouldn’t trade many thing in the world for the ability to sit down and pour my heart onto a piece of paper, or computer screen. It’s truly a blessing that I’m headed in the right direction as a writer. I wouldn’t want to be rich, I don’t need millions of dollars and a model girlfriend – I just want to write. All of the fun, women and friends can wait on the side while I do my thing. I’m sorry if anyone takes it personal or decides to hate me for it, but understand – it’s what I need to do in life to be satisfied. I don’t jump in front of anyone who’s on their way to succeeding, so I don’t expect anyone to hop in my way. I wish everyone the best and I hope everyone can want the same for me. If not, it won’t change a thing but you won’t be there when I come out on the other side.

A World Without Racism


I don’t know if America understands how racism not only affects blacks, but how it affects us all. It’s sad that in the year 2013 we’re still on the topic of racism. My father used to tell me that there would always be racism in the world, he was right. I myself am not, nor was I ever a racist. I’m actually not bothered by racism, because it’s so irrelevant in the progression of mankind. Racism will only hold us all back. If you’ve lived long enough, then you’ve most likely had to confront racism head on or you know someone who’s had to deal with racism. Nothing good ever comes of out hatred, and that’s exactly what racism is. It’s not a black versus white thing, it’s a you versus me thing. Instead of working together to provide a safer community for our children live, some of us would rather separated ourselves. Racist or not, we are all human and that’s the only classification that matters. If our world was overtaken by alien lifeforms we wouldn’t divide depending on our ethnic backgrounds, we would all unite as one race to defend our homes.

My family moved from a mostly black community in North Philadelphia to a white dominated neighborhood in Delaware. Our neighbors never greeted us, til this day I do not know any of my neighbors. They refuse to even look our way when we’re outside. Their actions don’t offend me, but I start to feel sorry for people like them who have no idea what experiences they’re passing up on by looking down on an entire race. I embrace different cultures from all over the world. I personally would never discriminate against anyone for anything. I believe that everyone has the right to be as they are and to live their lives without judgement. Living with prejudice is like giving up the right to understand how a certain culture operates. Racism is a self-destructive tool that needs to be eradicated so our children can live without those barriers. It’s truly up to those people to free themselves of the hatred and embrace the message of peace and love. Every single person on this planet deserves a chance to be understood, a chance to be loved, a chance to be seen as an equal. Today is your day to make a change, a change that’ll be passed on from generation to generation.

When Should You Start To Trust People?


With so many negative things happening in the world today, it’s hard to fully trust anyone. I still find myself giving people the benefit of the doubt. Rather than have someone fight for my trust, I give them the liberty of being trusted from the moment we meet, especially if I believe this person could be a friend in the near future. Giving them that trust doesn’t mean that I’m going to let them borrow the keys to my car or watch over my home when I’m on vacation. It means I’m not going to deem them totally untrustworthy from the moment I meet them. You have to trust someone to some extent in order to build a friendship with that person. It makes it easier on the both of you to bond. Don’t find yourself avoiding certain conversations or activities because you think someone cannot be trusted. Take the opportunity to get to know that person instead of letting your lack of trust keep them at a distance. As we grown older and become wiser, we should be able to identify the good in people as well as the bad. Trusting someone should become an easier task for you at some point in life. Let your opinions and feelings toward someone grow naturally, do not try to control them. Trust is a gift that should be shared early in a friendship. If one doesn’t deserve to be trusted, their true colors will eventually come to light.