Dear Stan, here I am writing you this letter
We’ve had some good times but we’re no good together
For a long time I thought I couldn’t do any better
You made me forget that sunshine was apart of the weather
Rain, sleet, snow, or hail you were always around
You’d comfort me without a word, even without a sound
For the longest time, the only feeling I knew was down
Me without you was like a king without his crown
I’d soon realize just how damaging you were
All the time we spent together is now just a blur
For now I can see clearly through my eyes
I can see that you were just pain in disguise
Sick and tired, hurt and defeated
My life in ruins, my feelings all depleted
There’s nothing I can hide, everyone can see it
Everyone I loved, from my life they were deleted
For all of that, there’s only you I can thank
I was running on E, now I’m refueling my tank
All I needed was one reason to live
One reason to love, one reason to give
Some call you drugs, but I choose to call you Stan
That’s because for a long time you were the man
Now I’m wiser and I’m taking a stand
I can fit the world in my palm without you in my hand
Trapped in a prison of illusions;
Intertwined in a life with no solutions,
At every turn there’s a question with no answer;
For every smile there’s a more threatening cancer,
The rubble we walked upon is the road of life;
A freeway of pain, broken dreams and spite,
What we see is what we get;
and what we know is all there is,
Life forms in circles, giving us one way to live.
Life is death and death is life
To have the whole thing is to have a slice
Taking a gamble to is hold the dice
We are winning to lose
And it’s all to confuse
The truth or a lie …
Which do we choose ??
If I drowned in your emotions, would you give me your last breath?
Or would you let me fall, slipping into the depths ?
If I was on fire with your love, would you drop your last tears?
Or would you let me burn hotter as death nears?
If I lost every battle in life, would you let me finally win?
Or would let me be a loser, tainted from the outside in?
I don’t know what made me cry
I could have been the color of the sky
Or maybe the green on the trees
Whatever it was made me fall with the leaves
At that moment, I felt every emotion in life
I cried and felt no sorrow, and no spite
Smiling, just happy that there will be a tomorrow
I was released and free to feel, so I guess I cried because I finally knew how freedom feels
Overcome with darkness, the black overflows from within
In a place where no man would willingly go again
No voice, no sight, just mist, and weightless thoughts
Those who fought have gone and passed with no chance to last
Amongst the hopeless with no reason to laugh
Looking for our smile, in a bottomless pit
Going lower and lower, just to see how low the bottom can get