Ever since I could remember, I have been a dreamer. There hasn’t been one night of my life that I can recall not having a dream or a nightmare. As a kid this used to frighten me at times. I didn’t know if it was normal for me to dream every time I fell asleep. Not only did I dream at night but even during the day or when I’d doze off. As time went on I became more understanding of my dreams. I knew that there wasn’t anything wrong with a kid who dreamed too much. I even started to like my nightmares. I was already a big horror fan so my nightmares were like scary movies, only I was the star.
Today, I still dream constantly. My dreams aren’t simple dreams. Most of the time I can’t even tell when I’m dreaming. I become so engulfed in the imaginary world around me when I’m sleeping. Everything is just as real as anything to me when I were awake. At some point in time my dreams and nightmares became an escape from life. When I was going through tough times I always looked forward to going to sleep because I knew I didn’t have to deal with real life issues. After my father passed when I was in the 7th grade, my dreams had become more important to me. My dreams became the only place I could spend time with him. I have memories of my father from my dreams that are just as important as the actual memories we shared when he was alive. After his death, I tried to dream of him every night by thinking of him all day. Sometimes it would work, sometimes it wouldn’t. Either way, I knew I’d see him again and I was happy with that.
Even when I wasn’t dreaming of my father, I was dreaming about something so out of the ordinary that it seemed real to me. In my dreams, I could be anything or anyone at anytime. I really took a liking to this. I’ve been kings, presidents, lion tamers, ghosts, animals, superheroes, you name it and I’ve been it inside of my dreams. This was a whole different world outside of the real world. Sleep became a nightly adventure for me. There was no telling what I was going to be when I closed my eyes. I just knew I wasn’t going to have to feel the burden of real life. Til this day, dreams are still my escape and they always will be. When life gets me down, I fall asleep and drift away from anything and everything real.