I started my first “long-term” relationship when I was 18. Honestly, it was a really good feeling. That feeling is what I described as love, a quick mistake. Being young and it being my first real relationship, I was eager to be in love and so was my girlfriend at the time. We both jumped in head first. We didn’t stop to question whether we were both ready to actually be 100% dedicated to each other both mentally and physically.
Time eventually made that decision for us. Eventually, things started to fall apart. I was hurt, but in the end. I just figured that it wasn’t true love. I learned valuable lessons from that relationships and it carried into my next relationship. The problem was that the next relationship felt the same as the last. Two young adults, craving love, not thinking about the future, living in the moment. Again, our relationship fell victim to time and misunderstanding.
Today, I’m single and in love. That may sound strange but it is true. I realized that the love I searched for all along was inside me the whole time. I dug deep to find it. It was a long process but I eventually knew that if I was gonna find true love, I had to know what it was to love without a relationship. Understanding love isn’t an easy task. You shouldn’t depend on anyone else’s love, only your own. You have to understand how important love is and feel that love enough to give it to another. The hardest part is finding someone who understand love just as much as you. Some have to be guided, don’t be afraid to lead a lost soul into the light.
Now that I realize that loving myself was the start, I know that my next relationship would have a better end. I can’t be 100% that this means I will fall in love and have a perfect union with the woman of my dreams. What I can be sure of is that I’m ready to appreciate a bond between two people more than I ever have. I feel in control of my emotions and my actions. Unlike before, I understand what it takes to keep someone happy and it starts with keeping yourself happy. There’s love inside of all of us, there’s no need to wonder if you’ll ever fall in love because that love lies deep within you. What’s more important than being in love is knowing how to love, knowing the importance and the power of the love within. Find the love inside of you and see where it takes you.